ANGRY

I am so fucking pissed off today i feel like screaming. crying. beating up someone. i feel very angry. angry at ece for being stupid.
i actutally feel like crying. i am sad. i am greiving. i am feeling awful. i am loosing my job. i am useless and i feel like a loser. howmany times in the last 10 years have i been jobless. quite a few. i always get laid off. i don't even work hard at jobs. i try to do the least i can do and get by. i keep gettimg screwed by myself. i hate myself. i hate ece. i hate symantec. i want to work there. they don't want me. i am loosing my job. i have 2 fucking degrees. i barely make enough money now to support myself. i want to hide. i want to get loaded.