Another year

So, Monday is my birthday. I will be 49 years young. I want to buy myself a nice gift, but i have no idea what to buy. any suggestions? i don't like being this close to fifty, especially when i still feel like i am a teeneager, but now i know better. Work totally sucks right now. they are closing our place. luckily, or unluckily as it may be, i am a Level II so iget to stay to the bitter, and i do mean bitter, end. i think i would have preferred to be offered offered a severance package and given a term date, but, oh well. at least it gives me time to find a better job. i will apply again at symantec, but not right away. i would like a job where i am not on the phone on a head set all the live long day. so i am looking... and looking. i hate looking for a job

Long time no see

Wow!! almost 3 whole months since i updated my blog.. what's up with that? Well i have either been too busy or couldn't think of anything interesting enough to say. but, i thought, dear readers, that i would let you all have an update as to what has been going on in the queens life.

It has been Good, very good infact. I have been on the beta-testing team at work. that gives me some time off the phone to install and uninstall software and to do some tasks and then report my results to the development team. it is different and i definetly like being off the phone. i have discovered kabbalah. it seems an appropriate spirirtual path for me. it is not so much based in judaism as in some softe of ethereal beleive that we all have an HP in us and no matter who we are we all strive to do good in the world and most of our daily strive comes from when we fuck up and do bad, it seems to make so much sense i see why others (Madonna for one) are attracted to this age-old path. it is not a religon. there azre no ritual. it is kind of like buddahism in which you just try to be more like the light and just live right.

i have been trying to quit smoking, and it is hard, i can keep it up for a few days and then even with a patch the urges overtake me and i give in. i have not tried the steps, but i a wrestling with where my desire is more to smoke or not to.

still hate my roomie. still not ready to move. i just hate the logistics of moving, looking for a place, getting the security payment, packing up, moving and moving those darn cats. ain't i good at justifying? but seriously folks, there must be a payoff for staying here besides the extra cash, but the cash is a good one.

still clean. still ornery. still queenly

until next time my fair subjects.

Working for the weekend

Ok.. so i am at work on a saturday morning. the phones are dead, and they are paying me time and a half to sit here and play games, to email my buddies, and to update my blog. this is awesome. so, what has been happening in my life lately? not much, everything has been status quo, i have been happy and joyous and free lately. work has been ok, i got a raise, qualified for bonus and my customer satisfaction scores have been going up and up. personally, i am still pretty unhappy with my roomie and my living situation, but i am willing to deal with it and accept the fact that having a roomie gives me more money to play with. i have awesome friends, and a great life.